Writer's Block

Recently, my writing took a turn.  All of a sudden, short stories were arriving.  It was interesting and they need a fair amount of revision.  Then I thought, where am I going to put these?  Too long for a blog, do I actually have to send them out?

So I just put the first one, a memoir, on the blog.  Thank you for seeing the love and pain in that one, those of you who responded.

I looked around at all the notebooks I have filled during my life. Thirty-five or so.  I thought, " You have to get rid of these so no one else has to deal with them when you die."  ( Good headspace, huh)

Then I stopped writing.

I knew something was wrong in my life.  I felt weird. What was it?

No notebook writing!

I have journaled for years to keep my sanity, to coach myself, to find out what I really think and feel, to let my creativity flow.

All of the meditations, poetry and stories were first in the journaling. Now, my listening to my guides, the universe and myself was cut off.  I had stopped the flow.

Big Mistake!!!!  This realization cured my writer's block.

My advice is don't stop yourself, don't censor  yourself, don't correct yourself.  And don' t define yourself.

I am choosing to realize I have a body of work, as writers have through the ages.

I have meditations, blogs, poetry, essays, memoirs, recordings for children, teens and adults, and now pieces of writing that may be called short stories.

But mostly I am a messy journal writer.  And yes, I am keeping those journals.  I look closer and find a treasure trove of important dreams, story ideas, reflections, and memories to rework or just remember what my life was like at certain times.

I write the blog because I think someone else must be going through the same thing and needs to  hear that.

So, writer, painter,yoga practitioner, musician, or artist of  your own life, keep the flow, keep the faith and love to you.   Namaste.

A Message I frequently receive

" What is the purpose of life?"

"To create Beauty."

This is the answer I always receive when I ask my guides this question. 

To Create Beauty  -  in life
                              -   in our art
                              -   in our relationships
                              -   with our children
                              -    in our work
What is Beauty?
                              -    Love. Love for life
                                              Love for others
                                               Love for nature
Creating Joy and understanding every day, with gratitude for this job we have been given.

Lucky us. If we can have the grace to open to this work.  Namaste.

For my mother, Memoir from a Daughter

The storm was present in my consciousness all night.  Ebbing and flowing, the wind blowing throughout my sleep.

I was dreaming of snow- a snowstorm to be exact.  The wind whistling through the cracks in the window, the sound of the snow drifting up against the house, and the knowledge that the world would look different when we woke up.

I was cozy in my bed, warm and snug, knowing my parents would keep me that way- safe and comfortable while they slept across the hallway.

I woke up- not in the snow, but to the rain.  And I achingly missed my parents as I  hadn't in years.

To explain, I have always felt pulled in two directions - between the life I have here in California and the one I could have lead in Wisconsin, with my parents and siblings.

We were in our twenties and blithley got in our little car and drove to California, breaking my parents' hearts.

We saw them once or twice a year, but it wasn't the same as living in the same town or even the same state.

I remember once I called my mom. She said, " It's snowing. The first snowfall of the year."

"Is it sticking? " I asked.

"Oh yes.  It's so pretty."

"Oh," I said.  She knew by the tone in my voice how I missed seeing that layer of soft white muffling the sound and turning everything into beauty.

The last time I talked to her, there was no snow.  I said, " You have to eat."  She said, " I ate a strawberry.  When are you coming?"

"July fifteenth."

" That's not soon enough."

"Well, that's when we have our reservations."

And she was right, as she was so many times when I only half listened.

Upon landing, the pilot said, " It is four o'clock in Wisconsin."
When we got to the house, my Dad said, "She died at four o'clock.
Indeed, it wasn't soon enough.

In a dream quite a few years ago, my grandmother and I were standing in the back garden, the one my mother had created, with lilac bushes, snapdragons, phlox and lilies of the valley.  We were looking at the full moon.

My grandmother said, "Look at the moons."

And then there were many moons, one above the other in its own strip of sky, each a different shade of color. Silver, pink, orange, blue and more.

I looked and thought, " Parallel moons, parallel lives, each one a possible life, a constellation of a turning point, I could have   chosen."

And now I am about the age my mother was when I last spoke to her.  And I look at the "Grandmother Moon" dream a little differently.  The moons seem to me to be the stages in a woman's life.  Infant, child, maiden, mother, and grandmother.

And so, I say to my mother," Thank you for bearing me, even though I caused you pain. Thank you for giving me this remembrance full of joy and pain."

I know you experienced happiness, for I have a memory and a picture of you as a young mother, doing a cartwheel on our grass, laughing and full of joy.

I know you showed me the for-get-me-nots that were your mother's favorite flower, so I would remember her and you. 

And I do remember.

I was looking for you after dinner.  You were lying on your bed, tired after feeding and looking after a family of five.  You moved over to let me lie next to you. And we listened to the crickets through the screen in the summer night. 

Namaste,  Lia

The Chakra System

Greetings! The next meditation I would like to offer you on meditatewithfriends.com is called The Chakra System.  Chakras are energy centers that run up and down your spine from above your head to below your feet. 

Your body is giving your mind all kinds of information all the  time and knowledge of the chakra system is very helpful in interpreting what is happening in your whole energy system.

I clear my chakras almost every day with various methods, usually before I go to sleep.  Sometimes just a gentle rotation, letting go of energy you gathered during the day that you don't need anymore and filling up again with your own  light is all you need.  Other times you might want to go deeper, as in this meditation. Getting a tune up like this makes you feel great and helps  you become more balanced.

There are no music or sounds on this one, just my voice, so hang in  - the rewards will be there and mostly, have fun with The Chakra System.  Namaste 

July 2018 new post leading to "Mountain Lake."

Hello!  I have been enjoying partial retirement for a few months.  It's an interesting place to be.  I now understand that these kinds of changes involve leaving behind part of the identity you have been  in the world and it causes some head trips.

But mainly, you come to know it is time to let go of that part of your life, there is kind of a natural ending.  You can keep it going for awhile but ultimately, it was a good ride and you are done with that section of your life purpose.

And yay! then, on to other things that can be given more attention to.  Kind of like fine tuning what you want to do with the rest of your life.  So I will be discovering that along the way.

Meanwhile, I am putting up one of my very favorite meditations for you on meditatewithfriends.com.  under the free to stream page.  It really is free to download, I have to change the heading.It is the last selection down the row.

In "Mountain Lake"  you will go to the most beautiful place and receive very deep healing in all your cells.  You will experience the presence of some unseen helpers, and perhaps  meet a special guide or the advice of a special guide to help you with whatever you need at this time in your life.

These meditations are given over a long period of time and so build up to a power simply because we have been sitting together for months or years.  They are still effective, I think, for one-time listening.  Write and let me know how you have experienced this one and perhaps I can judge which one would be helpful to you to   put up next time.  I would love to hear from you. 

Namaste,  Lia

Greetings!  I have been off the grid here for awhile.  On a quest to discover what my health problem was. 

I was reluctant to change doctors for a year or more, I don't know why. The new doctor sent me to a specialist who diagnosed me in about eight minutes.  I  kept asking my old doctor if I had PD but she said no, I think because it was presenting in a slightly non-typical way.  However , my mother got it at the same age I am, so I believe heredity is a factor.

So, please change doctors and get a second or third opinion instead of suffering with someone who is not listening!

I am getting balanced, doing very well and am almost back to normal( as normal as I ever was, Lol).

So, I decided I would offer all the meditations free on my website.  There is quite a variety in depth, length, some for children, mostly women and all adults.

I plan on releasing one every few weeks until I am caught up with what we have recorded and then offer new ones.

Beginning with " The Rainforest."  This is fairly heavy, will take you deep, with body healing, meeting guides, and onto some global healing.

You may do this alone or with a group.  Either way you will enter a kind of "no time".  It's length is 8:28 but can seem like 20 minutes. 

So, Sending you all healing.

The website is meditatewithfriends.com.  Go to the page that says "Free meditations to download." 

It's been awhile since I worked on the website, still a few things to correct and hoping the angels help me to glide on this path! 

Namaste,   Lia

Happy Holidays!

Greetings to all!

I sit here waiting for the plumber to come.  Of course right before I am hosting a big dinner, something goes wrong! Thank goodness for him, though , as he is honest and knows what he is doing.

For those of you, like me, who need some sustenance during the holidays, please go to December of 2013 in the blog list.  You will find, "Honoring Christmas's Past",  " A Winter Meditation", and
"The Holidays" to help you through.  I just read them and they helped me out tremendously.  Remembering what the holidays are really about and offering healing to the world with these.

So, May your holidays be blessed with love, 

Namaste, Lia